8/4/14 was one of the best days of my life! It was the day I found out that my husband and I were expecting our first child. I was a bit numb and struck with unbelief that I was actually, for real pregnant, but once it settled it, that numbness turned into sheer excitement!! We went to the doctor about a week after we found out and were able to see our baby AND hear the heart beat. This was one of the most beautiful experiences EVER.
About two weeks after this appointment, I experienced heavy cramping which was later accompanied by bleeding. We went to the ER and by the end of the night, we had lost our baby. Words seriously can’t describe how truly heartbroken we were. We cried, and cried, and cried some more and allowed ourselves the time to mourn the loss. Some may think, “you were only 8 weeks pregnant, was it that serious?” – YES it was. I realized that, although the fetus hadn’t fully developed as yet, a bond and connection had already formed.
Thankfully, my husband and I were surrounded by family and friends who SHOWERED us with love and prayers and had it not been for those prayers, I’m not sure where we would be. I’m grateful that God’s love surrounded us in SUCH a real way and we were able to rest in Him and receive comfort during that time. Although we still get sad, and still may need to cry here and there, we are POSITIVE that this is not the end. As a matter of fact, this is only half of our testimony. We know for a fact that God is indeed going to bless us with a beautiful, healthy child, and until then, we’ll STILL give Him glory!
If you’ve gone through this before, please know that you’re not alone. There are COUNTLESS women who have experienced miscarriages and it’s not your fault. Please don’t blame yourself for this occurrence and trust that God can and will not only comfort you but keep His promise that you WILL become fruitful and WILL multiply.
My husband wrote a blog post about his point of view and we did a video sharing our experience in a bit more detail. It’s my prayer that you are encouraged by it.
Love you all!