I am who I am. I can only be who I am; nothing more, nothing less. I am who I am.
When I was younger, I would always mimic people in my life who I deemed better than me. For example, I thought my childhood best friend was absolutely gorgeous – she was tall, she was slim, hair always slicked down (perm on fleek!), and super stylish too! And because all the guys liked her, I wanted to change myself to be slimmer, with hair slicked down, and of course with a style similar to hers to match!
When I was in high school, I wanted to be “down”. I wanted to be cool. I wanted to be accepted. So I found myself experimenting heavily with liquor and sex. I longed for something to brag about and used those as my vices. In college, it continued. I liked how free I felt when I was tipsy or drunk and I received so much attention from indulging in the debauchery, which was the icing on the cake.
But, deep down I wasn’t happy. That wasn’t me and I knew it.
As time progressed, I became curious about finding out who I really was.
What made Celeste happy?
Where did Celeste find her truest form of joy?
What’s is Celeste’s purpose?
I came to realize the importance of knowing and ACCEPTING me, just the way that I am because if I didn’t accept me for me, then I would never be completely satisfied or happy. This mindset shifted the focus from outside to internal. Whenever we focus on outside factors (ie. other people), it’s easier to see what we are not. But when we focus internally, on ourselves, that’s when we get a birdseye view of who we really are.
Thus far I’ve learned that I am unique. I am a leader. I’m a producer. I am filled with purpose. I can do things that others can, but because I am who I am, my spin on it will be different. I have something to offer that no one else does, solely because I’m the only me out here!
I don’t know if it’s because I’m approaching “the big 3-0” but I am learning to completely love and embrace ME. Now, don’t get me wrong. There are parts of me that I’m not entirely happy with. One of those things being my size/weight. I’ve gained a lot of weight over the years which is, in part, due to PCOS that hit me really heavy around 2010, and also in part to poor eating habits & self-discipline (self-exploration means putting yourself on blast when need be!) – but this is still who I am – right now at least. Thankfully weight gain is something I can change so I’m working on that so I can become an even better version of myself!
Is there something about yourself that you don’t love? Think about it. Write it down. Then write what you can do within your control to make the necessary changes! The great part about self-exploration is that you can work on things within you to make yourself even better!
I am a visionary and you are too! All that simply means is that we have a vision for my future and are working toward it to create an even better version of ourselves while simultaneously accepting and loving who we are today!
And if you’re reading this today feeling like there’s nothing about you to rave about, I’d like to remind you that:
You are awesome!
You are unique!
And as long as you have breath, that means that there is PURPOSE for you to release on this earth!
Life is all about discovering more and more about yourself and using those discoveries to hone yourself into the person God has purposed you to be.
Be Encouraged & Be You! :*